My time here in Ohio is quickly coming to an end... I have been so blessed this summer. The girls that have been in  my cabin have blessed me so much. I know that I am going to miss this place a lot. The people that I have met and have gotten the chance to work with have just been amazing and so supportive. I am possibly heading back to CBCC... but as of right now I have no idea where I'm heading in this next season. I leave here in 16 days...

The thing about God is that he often leads us to places that we never even dreamed we would be. I never thought that I would spend over a year working and living on the Oregon Coast. I never thought I would make friends from all different parts of the word because of that expereince. I am now getting ready to embark on my next adventure. God has opened the doors for me to serve and live at a Christian camp with the emphasis on horsemanship in Ohio for the summer. Marmon Valley Farms, I wil be a counselor/housekeeper for the summer. I'm really excited for this adventure and where it will lead me after the summer.

The ABC's of Thankfulness

We often forget to be thankful in our busy lives. We take things for granted. I got an idea from my brothers friend but I hope that whoever reads this blog also tries this out.

A: Art, I am thankful for the fact that the world is full of creative people that can create amazing pieces of art.
B: Blessings, I am thankful for the many blessings that God have given me.
C: Cats, I am thankful that I have a cute cat at home that drives me nuts but I wouldn't trade him.
D: Dancing in the rain, there is nothing more freeing than dancing in the rain.
E: Encouragment, I am thankful for the encouragment that I recieve from family and friends.
F: Family and Friends, I am thankful for the people that God has placed in my life.
G: God, He is my rock and my foundation.
H: Health, I am thankful for good health
I: Inspiration, I am thankful for the way God inspires me to be better in everything I do.
J:Joy, I am thankful for the joy God provides.
K: King, I am thankful for the King of my life
L: Love, I am thankful for love
M: Music, I am thankful for the blessing of music.
N: Names, I am thankful for my name and the meaning of it.
O: Old Vintage items, I am thankful for old vintage things they inspire me to be creative.
P: Piano's, I am thankful for the beautiful music that comes out of a piano
Q: Quests, I am thankful for modern day "quests" or adventures
R: Rain, I am thankful for the refreshing rain.
S: Siblings, I am thankful for my crazy, loving, siblings.
T: Trees, I am thankful for tress because they create clean air.
U: Underwire, don't underestimate a good bra.
V: Vacations, I am thankful for vacations and getaways
W: Wild animals, I am thankful for the fact that we still have a few "wild" animals
X: X-rays, I am thankful for modern medicine and equipment.
Y: Years, I am thankful for the years that I have lived and hopefully will have many more.
Z: Zoo's, I am thankful that there are places were I can see many different kinds of animals.

50 things

So I got this idea from a friends blog.. But I thought I would give you a list of things about me..

50 things about me.

1. I am 23 years old and yet I feel so much older
2. I was born in Florida but I grew up in Washington
3. I love to swim
4. I am a talker.. but I also have been told that I'm a good listener too
5. I am a Christian and it is a huge part of who I am
6. I love musicals.. opera... actually almost all theatre...
7. I have been in 9 shows since 2003
8. I am friendly person
9. I don't have a ton of close friends but the ones who I am close with I consider all of them my best friends.
10. I love all animals...
11. I have never been on a date
12. I have always been overweight
13. I think that my best physical feature is my blue eyes
14. I try to be positive when life looks bleak
15. I love rings
16. I want to own a pair of red high heels one day
17. I love old things...
18. I love books... I especially love going into bookstores in small beach towns
19. I'm a slight germaphobe... working on it
20. I am unemployed... and honestly I am looking and applying for jobs... but I'm not worried. God has provided for me in the past and I know he will provide now.
21. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason
22. I am a romantic... I am not a hopeless romantic...
23. I have a small collection of teddy bears
24. I love dressing up
25. I love the beach
26. I spent the last year living at Cannon Beach
27. I still love swinging on swings at a park
28. I'm not terrified of heights but I'm not exactly fond of them either
29. I don't believe in online dating
30. I love taking photos but I'm horrible at scrap booking
31. I have never had a voice lesson
32. I own too many movies
33. I haven't seen my natural hair color since I was in 8th grade
34. I love Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers movies
35. My all time favorite color is green,it is the color of life
36. I would love to be a mother someday
37. The only thing I know how to sew is pillow's or pillow cases
38. I bite my nails
39. I love and hate the sun.. my fair skin burns to easily
40. I have always loved Horses
41. I love fall and one day I hope to have a November Wedding
42. I love poetry
43. I want to go to Ireland one day
44. I'm the middle child... and at times I do feel like my siblings outshine me..,
45. I believe that God has great things planned for me.
46. I have many dreams
47. I want to see a show on Broadway one day
48. I would love to see where I was born one day
49. I have no idea where tomorrow will lead but I'm confident that it will take me one more day closer to something great...
50. My all time dream is to be a singer/actress in an opera

Provision

I've made it my goal to read and write about the Old Testament this year. I am now in Leviticus and I have realized that there are many things that I have missed because I have rushed through books of the Bible before. I'm looking forward to what this year brings... I still haven't found a job but honestly I'm not worried. God knows where he wants me and he will open the doors. I have been looking. I applied for a summer job at the Montreat Conference Center in North Carolina and I REALLY want this job!! It is only a 20min drive to where my grandparents live and I could visit them which would be nice.. but I really want this job because I want to work somewhere that's main goal is to bring people to Christ. I would be staying on conference center grounds and I would get to meet so many people. I really really want this. I've been praying about this job since I came across it during the summer. And then I chickened out and didn't apply in January and thought that I had probably missed their deadline. But then I went to thier website and they had a second deadline that I was able to turn in everything in for the round two of employee applications. So now I'm waiting and praying that I hear from them soon and hopefully, God willing I will get a yes to me going and serving there this summer! Be praying for me!!
I guess that's it for me right now. I just decided that I should update people on my life so far... God is good. '

                     

Remain (new song... let me know what you think)

Come to me
when I'm at my weakest
Come to me
when I have failed
Come and see
me at my failure
I need you to see me

If you see me then
and you can still look me in the eye
If you see me then
and you still can love me more
If you see me then
and you still open the door to your heart
I know that you will always
remain

Come see me
when I'm broken
Come see me
when I'm angry
Come see me
when I'm so ashamed
Come see me
come see me

If you see me then
and you still hold your arms out for me
If you see me then
And you still call for me
If you see me then
and you pray over me
If you see me then
and you still love me
I know you will
remain

I know that if you can understand me
when I am broken
I know that if you can see the true me
even when I'm lost
I know that if you find me lovely
even when I feel like mess
I know that your love will remain
remain

I'll see you when
you're broken
I'll see you
when the world is crashing in
I'll see you
and I'll hold my arms out to you
I'll see you
and my love will
remain

-GCS 11

12 days

As of tomorrow there will be only 12 days left until I leave Cannon Beach for the second time. I left in 2010 to go after life and to try to figure everything out.. and well God led me back letting me know that He was not finished with me being here in CB. But this time I feel a pull... I felt a pull to leave at the end of the summer but I ignored it thinking I was just getting restless.. But then God gave me the opportunity to do what I love (acting) here in CB and I have met some amazing people because of being in Annie Get Your Gun at the Coaster Theatre. It although stressful and I complain way too much about it, but it has been a blessing to me... I though know that CBCC was going to be a stepping stone. I have known that since the first summer I worked here. I came back because it was an easy answer for unemployment. And I know that people have been trying to convince me to stay here and stay employed and pratically telling me I'm fool for leaving because the job market is soo terrible... I know that the job market is terrible. I know that it will be hard to find a job.. I'm not running into this blindfolded... I know. I feel like God is calling me to step out of this position.. into what.. I'm not sure. I don't know who my next employer will be... I don't know where I'll be in a few months or so... my goal right now is to move home, hopefully start school in the fall and obtain my associates degree... and from there who knows.. but I do know that whatever I'm doing wherever I am is because I feel like God wants me there for that time. CBCC has and is a blessing to me. I have grown up here and learned a lot more within this last year than any other time of my life. But, I'm ready for a change. I'm ready for God to lead me to the next adventure. Join me...

As the year comes to a close I'm reminded of the two words that I felt God speaking to me right before I came here in January of 2011... Run, and Light. I shared these two words with a friend and the vision that I had seen when I heard the word Light in January. She shared that when I was talking about the vision she thought of the Coaster Theatre and how everyone there is going through some trial or another and each one holds their own beleifs and such. And how she felt like it was Light that they needed. Guidance. When she was saying that I got a chill and I knew that it was something God was calling me to be.. A light for them. A light with the way I try to cheer people up, a light in the way I am acting... a light. I'm still not sure about the Run part... But I did come up with the idea.. that we are willing to run for soo many things in our life.. deadlines and tests.. etc.. but are we willing to Run for God? Are we willing to put our relationship with God as the first thing we Run for?