I Need You

I wrote this song today. It's still a little rough and I am going to hopefully work out all the kinks and maybe record it sometime. But here are the lyrics:

Every breath

that I take

comes from your grace

Every song

that my heart hears

comes from your great voice

Breathe in me

let me hear your beauty

I am in need of you

every day

in every way

I have no life apart from you

please come and fill my heart again

again

again

with your song

All that I am

is nothing

without you

Everyday

is empty

without you

Breathe in me

let me hear your beauty

I am in need of you

every day

in every way

I have no life apart from you

please come and fill my heart again

again

again

with your song

GCS 2014

Crying is...ok

Do you ever just sit down and start praying and suddenly it turns into a big ol crying thing? I do. Sometimes I feel like I come off stronger than I am. God's been tearing down a lot of walls in my life over the last couple of years and it has become a relief that I can openly be emotional about my walk with God. But I know how uncomfortable I get when people become weepy around me, (I'm not usually sure what to do) so I don't usually cry in front of others. But it is a gift from God. Crying is a release. It helps relieve tension and start the healing process. So if you are like me and tend to push back a lot of feelings... go somewhere and either cry or yell... something and let God start healing. For example:

Tonight I had a heart to heart with God. And I still don't know a whole lot of answers. But I prayed about His will for my life. Because I'm not entirely sure what He's doing. Which to be honest most of us don't. But I have hit kind of a road block. I had felt like God wanted me to pursue Camp Ministry (I still do) and I have turned in a couple applications. But I feel like God has told me to stop applying. For all I know I have already applied to the Camp he wants me to pursue. But I have hit a road block. And so I cried and maybe raised my voice a little and had a conversation with God. And because he is amazing I feel a ton better. His peace is with me. But still no open doors yet. And I know he works on his own time. So I will have patience and wait.

Keep praying for me. I'll keep praying for you!

Declaration!

2014

I declare this a year of growth!

I will strive to grow closer to God with every waking moment. I want His Will for my life to consume my thoughts and my path. I will focus, and dedicate time to studying His Word. 

I will make healthy choices this year. In my eating habits I will learn to live by healthy portions and choices. I will make time for exercise, including the occasional hike. 

I will learn to love myself, to stop pushing myself down. I will make goals and achieve them. 

I will make mistakes, but I will learn from them.

I will forgive. I will learn to show Christ love to all those I come in contact with. 

This year is the year I regain my health, and improve my relationships. I will make new friends, try new things, and most importantly I will pursue God's will for me.  

2014 you will not be a wasted year. 

-Gabrielle Chantal Stiltz