Do you ever just sit down and start praying and suddenly it turns into a big ol crying thing? I do. Sometimes I feel like I come off stronger than I am. God's been tearing down a lot of walls in my life over the last couple of years and it has become a relief that I can openly be emotional about my walk with God. But I know how uncomfortable I get when people become weepy around me, (I'm not usually sure what to do) so I don't usually cry in front of others. But it is a gift from God. Crying is a release. It helps relieve tension and start the healing process. So if you are like me and tend to push back a lot of feelings... go somewhere and either cry or yell... something and let God start healing. For example:
Tonight I had a heart to heart with God. And I still don't know a whole lot of answers. But I prayed about His will for my life. Because I'm not entirely sure what He's doing. Which to be honest most of us don't. But I have hit kind of a road block. I had felt like God wanted me to pursue Camp Ministry (I still do) and I have turned in a couple applications. But I feel like God has told me to stop applying. For all I know I have already applied to the Camp he wants me to pursue. But I have hit a road block. And so I cried and maybe raised my voice a little and had a conversation with God. And because he is amazing I feel a ton better. His peace is with me. But still no open doors yet. And I know he works on his own time. So I will have patience and wait.
Keep praying for me. I'll keep praying for you!
Yes! Crying is okay! I am like you in that I don't like to cry in front of others if I can help it, and other people crying makes me uncomfortable because I don't know how to respond to that.
ReplyDeleteI also know what it's like to feel like you've hit a road block, believe me, I understand where you are at, my friend! I'm so thankful that God has begun the healing process for you and that you have peace in this.
I will most definitely be praying for you!
Thank you Dani!
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