My Bible

I have a hard time parting with my Bible. I have had this Bible for five years I got it as a gift from my church when I graduated from high school. It's pages have been worn, and Genesis is trying to escape the binding. My book of Colossians that I led so many beautiful little girls through is tearing out too. It is my favorite translation NLT, and it is where I go for all my answers. I have several other Bibles but this is the one that I have memorized the scripture from and have held in my hands through many situations. It being held together by duct tape now... I am getting a new NLT Bible soon, but I'm pretty sure this one will still be the first one I go to reach for when I need to find something. I know it seems a little silly since the next Bible will have the same translation and all, but to me it will be a weird transition. I am sure I will keep this Bible that has all my markings and highlighting throughout it's frail pages. This Bible has been one of my most cherished gifts. The word of God.

How I miss you

Remembering all the good times
All the happiness
that filled our lives
Thinking how you used to smile
when I made a fool
out of myself
The laughter
and the sparkle of your eyes
are now memories
and will soon fade from
my mind

Oh, how I miss you
Oh, how I long for your embrace
Oh, I hope your happy
now that you have left this place
have left this place

I know that you
had no choice
your sickness had gotten too strong,
the world you knew was becoming smaller
and the promise of new life
called you home

but...
Oh, how I miss you
Oh, how I long for your embrace
Oh, I hope your happy
In your new home
that heavenly place
that heavenly place.

Pity Party

I am going to throw a pity party for a second here. I am tired and honestly I mean tired of being alone. I know that God is always there for me. But I am tired of the fact that I'm 23 almost 24 and yet the only "date," that I have ever had was for prom and he was gay. I'm tired of seeing my friends share about there significant others and how wonderful they are... because frankly I can't relate. I know that I have often times said that it felt good to be single to avoid the drama of relationships, but I don't know anymore. I am just ready to have someone to share my dreams with and to just watch a movie with. I want to have someone take an interest in what I want to do, and not look down on me like I'm naive or stupid for having my dreams. I want someone to just simply tell me I look beautiful sometimes. I know it is the lament of many girls ahead of me... but it is still something I want and I am afraid it won't happen and I will turn out to be the crazy cat lady many think I'll become. I just wish God would bring that guy into my life. I know a lot of my friends who are single and are in the same boat as I am, I don't know... So this is my pity party.. don't feel like you have to comment. I just needed to rant a little.

I Dare You

Sometimes in the chaos of life we forget to dream. We go through the motions of getting by, but we fail at dreaming of new horizons... adventures. I am also at fault when it comes to this forgetfulness. I rush through and grab every opportunity to advance and every chance to make a buck but while I'm rushing through to get to where I'm going I miss so much. I forget to let my imagination take control and make the ordinary extraordinary... and the dull into shine. I miss the chance to see a cloud for not just a cloud but to see it as an animal or person. This is the never ending quest. I need to stop and let myself dream of a brighter future then the one I've laid out for myself. God has more in store for me. Much more than I can imagine... but imagining is the first step in heading towards this great adventure waiting for me. So I guess this post is about not letting go of your dreams so easily. This life is the only one on earth that we get, and wasting it on something that your heart isn't in is ridiculous. Dream the dreams that seem impossible... and let your imagination color your life with adventures. Let go of the mundane and grasp the excitement of life.