Dreams and Expectations

~My soul, wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him.~ Psalm 62:5

     When I was a young child I had always wanted to be a ballerina, in fact I took some lessons when I was in first grade and although I loved it, I didn't continue. But that was one of my dream jobs. But at the same time I wanted to be a veterinarian. I loved animals and I wanted to help them, but when I found out that vets also had to put animals down that went to the bottom of the list of dream jobs. At one point I remember I wanted to be a horse trainer. But that never panned out either. I have had this idea of jobs and of the kind of life I wanted to live since I was a child. I have even made lists of what I wanted to see in guy before I would even date him. Some of the things seem so silly now. But I have always had high expectations for my life.
     I can tell you now... none of those jobs seem all that appealing to me now. I still have high expectations but they have been shaped by my life. The lists have gotten smaller. But it all comes down to God. When I was younger His will didn't seem to be a priority. As I have grown up I have let go a lot of my ideas because they were not going to work. I have let go of guys that I had fallen for, because they were not God's will for me. I am finding that as I get older the path I'm walking become more narrow and full of hazards. But I am learning that if I leave it up to God and I don't rely on me, it turns out a whole lot better. I don't know what tomorrow might bring. My expectations for my life seem to change everyday. But I do know that it will be ok. I will have trials, I will deal with pain. But there will also be triumphs and joy. God will direct my path. I just need to be willing to follow. Dreams and expectations can be wonderful, but if they're rooted in your abilities and strength alone... then those dreams and expectations will wither. Keep them rooted in God.